Here we are at the birth of a new year. 2016. However you rang in the new year, you are part of a human field of beings entering into a new experience. So far, 2016 may seem the same as 2015. Who knows how it will unfold? If you are like many others, you have made or are making some new years’ resolutions. I liked an email I received recently suggesting that we reconsider our resolutions as goals. Rather than trying to do what we are making ourselves do, or feel we should be doing, how about pausing, looking inside, and listening to our hearts? What is your heart’s desire for this new year?
For me, I am holding the vision of completing editing and publishing my book, The Breath of Life: An Introduction to Craniosacral Biodynamics. I understand that, in numerology, 2016 is a year of completion. The digits in 2016 add up to 9. 20 + 16 = 36. 3 + 6 = 9. Or 2 + 0 + 1 + 6 = 9. No matter how you do it, the number is 9. In numerology, 9 relates to completion. The number following 9 is 10, which adds up to 1. Therefore, 9 ends a cycle. I don’t claim to know much about numerology, but I appreciate that these numbers somehow may be supporting me in completing this project, perhaps even in having this desire to complete this year!
While the number 2016 may be meaningful, what I see as significant isn’t really about it being a new year; rather beginning a new year represents for us the potential of any new beginning. From my experience with prenatal and birth therapy over the years, both as client and therapist, I am aware that our tendency in times of new beginnings is to revisit or re-enact our first new beginning in this life. How we experienced our birth, or even our conception, can profoundly affect how we embrace transitions, endings and beginnings in our lives.
Through my own therapy, I have been able to develop awareness of this pattern, which enables me to make choices to support a different ending. I have also healed through learning how this pattern first developed. My mother used to tell me that, when I was being born, she was fine with the labor pain because she knew it meant the baby was coming. At some point, however, the doctor said, “I’m just going to give you a whiff of something.” She was completely knocked out by this drug, which of course affected me as well. The point in my process where I tend to lose touch with time relates to when the anesthesia came in to interrupt my birth process. Although I still sometimes notice this tendency, it is much milder than it used to be. I celebrate now when I am preparing for one of my too many trips away from home and find myself easily, spaciously getting organized and packed. The acceleration near the end rarely happens now. When it does, I have a different relationship to it. I acknowledge this is my birth pattern arising and reassure the little one in me that we are not being born right now and that there is no anesthesia coming in.
Prenatal and birth experience can affect us in different ways. A child whose conception wasunplanned and unwanted may find it difficult to find any authentic desire to start something new later in life, or may need to push through their fear of being judged and rejected in order to accomplish anything. Induced birth can also have the effect of interfering with one’s own sense of timing. Birth assisted by forceps, ventouse or caesarian section, while at times life saving, may also affect a sense of being able to complete on one’s own. There may be a feeling of needing to be rescued. Babies who have been stuck in the birth canal, may feel like giving up, getting depressed for no apparent reason. The obstacles seem like too much struggle to surmount.
What happens for you when you make new beginnings? How do you feel about this time of year? How do you set goals for yourself? How do you move towards them? This is a good time of year to observe ourselves and our tendencies in transitions. Awareness is the first step in healing, so just asking yourself these questions may take you a long ways! Listening to your heart can further help smooth the road ahead.
With all of this in mind, I wish you ease, creativity, happiness and delight in this new year! I’d love to hear how it is for you.